我已經很久沒寫中文了。不過我還在繼續閲讀收穫等值得鑑賞與吸收的文章。所以目前爲止不擔心自己的文學素養不夠稱得起我在中國的前途。 還有，少看無聊的小説，真的會幫你提高寫作以及欣賞周圍事物的能力。

I am informed that the INTERNSHIP at Nomura Securities Co.,Ltd. will be held in Augest 18-22,which means,I have to choose wether to go back to china or stay. Well,I thought I missed those guys but turns out I only want to meet the girls.So,I may go back but only have the trip with girls.SINGLE GIRLS FOR MR.RIGHT TRIP.That name really sucks...

希望大家都考到好成績。 8.4-? go back see everyone for the last time.or go to the boat camp or something for FREE credits 9.2-9.18 will be AT the driving school. 9.21-9.27 will be in Singapore watching F1 GP+etc. NO ANSWERING　FOR CELL PHONE CALLS. YOU KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME. SEE YOU GUYS SOON.

你看，理解你價值的人，都在考大學。其他的，都在忙着昏天黑地和檯球啤酒瘦身減肥呢。 和她們說什麽話呢。有什麽可說的呢。感覺聯想和她們説話的我智商都要低下了

。。。就連姐姐都變那樣，實在沒話好講了。。。

有些時候，明明沒有力氣了卻還要強忍著，要寫完作業，要讀好書。
有些時候，明明就討厭到了噁心卻還口口聲聲，說，嗯，哦，對哦。

爲什麽就不能直接的說，討厭就是討厭，噁心就是噁心呢？
爲什麽就不可以說不寫作業了，就放在那裏不寫不碰，卻又不感到罪惡呢。

我想大聲說，有些人的水準真的是很低很低很低很低
我想大聲說，我就是比他們知道的太多太多太多太多

我所得到的一切都是我自己努力換來的
我不怕別人講什麽失去的其實是和擁有的是一樣多的。

我偏不相信，你覺得你哪裏比我好很多？
我罵你智商低也絕對不會怕你說我不懂做個好女生。

我要提醒自己不要再對國内的人有任何幻想和期望
你已經和他們不同囯了，三年前就已經不是了。
你要面對的是選耶魯或哈佛，他們要面對的是一本或二本
你覺得還有必要回去施捨你所謂的念舊與童年憧憬麽。可笑。

還有讓你失望的某個人，她自己都不覺得自己做的哪裏不對，又何必替她傷心難過亂着急呢
不必要，真的不必要。她喜歡自己的生活，儘管我寧願叫那是淫亂，可她甚至不會為那害羞。

還有我受不了別人用一種站在你頭上和講話那口氣，無論他是同學還是朋友，
儘管他實在和你開玩笑或是什麽，那就是讓我覺得無比厭惡，想用拳頭打過去的衝動。

not you guys,I can say.
get away and stay out of my sight.

有點噁心了。因爲知道你英文不好。我只是想說，我都忘了我們甚至都不是朋友。
所以，別怪我不理你，我就是這種人，討厭了就是討厭了。沒，理由。
要怪就怪你自己不了解我吧。
你來這裡就知道爲什麽了，不來就繼續納悶吧

He got married.With someone I don't know or I should know.His wedding was in 19th May,while I don't know why I was there,but nobody knew and called me to come.Maybe that was another trick of his mother I thought and laughed.But no those were all true.The wedding he and the bridewhose face I never met.I totally frecked out shouted and blamed everyone for they should at least invite me to the wedding. there was a moment that I thought I should break his wedding.By the small history between he and I.And just after that moment I came up with that ugly idea,I realised how stupid I am.ALWAYS HAVE BEEN ALWAYS ARE.That was just an accident which brings the cosequences he would rather forget than keep in mind.The feelings and anger he got then were anything but pleasure,how dare I even expect him to remember them to recall them on his wedding days or any days in the rest of his life and after all,to make them A sweet loving thoughtful 衝動 which mean,lucky for me,he is still in love with me and he would rather dump his girlfriend to be with me,who is ugly both inside and outside,who is moody and temporary and evil.Any way I should be proud of myself considered these before I take any actions and moves.Maybe I am not that bad yet.Maybe I am too smart to forsee things ,maybe that is the reason why I am not able to share my happiness with someone I LOVE. NEVER HAVE AND POSSIBLY NEVER WILL.